Why Why Why

Sorry need to have a whinge at myself. Why do I do it to myself????? I know what to do to lose weight but why do I self sabotage????

I've been walking to work for the past 3 and a bit weeks and if I'm honest with myself my eating has been crap for at least the past 2/3 weeks. Why is it if I do exercise I tend to eat crap and if I don't exercise I stick to my points and eat healthy food??? Why am I incapable of doing both????

I guess the answers to this is why I have a weight problem and have bouncing around at this weight for the past 6 months.

I did manage to get under 100 kilos the other week but didn't really feel like posting a celebratory post cause I didn't get as excited as I should have....

I currently weigh 99.7 kilos and that's a total loss of 16.2 kilos over the past 13 months. Not all that great when you look at the time its taken, but at least I've lost something I guess...

I'm off to Melbourne tomorrow for the F1 Grand Prix and with money a bit tight this year, I'm planning on eating breakfast in the motel (cereal, skim milk fruit and maybe some toast). Also with the race being a mid afternoon race (not starting to 5.30 p.m.) the gates don't open until 11.30 a.m. We are planning on using the gym and pool at the motel, which is another good thing, especially given the late starting time.

This post isn't about feeling sorry for myself etc., it more to get some stuff out of my head that has been stressing me out for a little while....

Just need to do it... Fake it till I can make it......